It’s been a year since anything important happened to me
Like you
And as of now
I live in the past
Because all I want is to go back to our 10pm conversations
Or go through the whirlwind memories we created
2014 was me shrinking
2014 was the year I told myself I grew
2014 was the year I learnt the words anxiety and depression
It was the year I realized my body is mine
My brain is mine
And I might not want any of it
It was also the year I realized
Everyone likes me
But nobody cares
And,
I just want to go back to the time I felt loved and I felt wanted and I felt fucking invincible in your arms and I don’t want to grow up, I don’t want to be alone. All I want every night is for you to remind me why I should love myself because darling I’ve forgotten half the list already.
2014 was me tricking myself into thinking I was fine
And I would like to begin 2015 by saying I may not be.